Not Always Peaches and Cream

I want to turn the page a little here. Most of my posts around my health journey are positive, uplifting and motivating, or at least that is the intent. I'm not ever trying to be fake or act like everything is easy peasy, I just simply try to maintain a positive attitude in the face of adversity because to me, I don't have an option.

Get ready though, because this is a post about how it's not all rainbows and butterflies.

I'm well aware that my ebook is titled "well, that was hard" but here's a snippet that you won't find in the book.

This shit IS hard. While most days I do honestly maintain the positive outlook, it doesn't mean I don't have days (sometimes weeks) where I'm frustrated and feel completely deflated. It's important for everyone to see that side too. That's where I'm at right now and few will actually hear about it because I don't often talk about it. Not because I don't want people to know though. It's because I try not to dwell in it.

Working your ass off and getting minimal to no results sometimes. Roadblocks that make things that used to be simple, incredibly difficult. The inner voice that says, just one will be fine, but knowing it will send you into a spiral. Being surrounded by people that may support you but don't truly understand the daily struggle you go through and how isolating a health journey can be sometimes.

Food is an addiction. An addiction that you can't just quit because you need it to survive. So instead, you have to learn how to have a healthy relationship with it. Every. Single. Day. It's exhausting constantly thinking about it. You're met with choices. I definitely boast in my book that making the right choice is empowering. Making the right choice gives you control over your life. It's ok to sometimes NOT make the right choice, we're not perfect.

All those things are true.

Here's the flip side though. Making the right choice is hard and when you don't make the right choice, while it is ok that doesn't erase the guilt. There's honestly guilt no matter what choice you make.

People will judge you when you make good decisions just like they'll judge you when you don't.

That's it. I'm just having a moment and I wanted to share so when you have YOUR moments, you don't feel alone.